Toward the eventual vanishing

There is a vision of loosening, of slipping beyond what is held, a softness that spreads like fog, blending into the air. It feels like freedom, but also like a gentle end, a dissolving that is neither escape nor loss. This vision is felt not in fear but in acceptance, as though the letting go has always been part of the staying. There is a sweetness in it, a tenderness that wraps around the form, holding and loosening — a grip, a breath that releases without struggle.

It imagines itself as light, as shadow, as a whisper of warmth left on the air, a memory that drifts beyond the skin, beyond the shape it has taken. This is not departure, not in the way of endings, but in the way of softening, of surrender, a gentle vanishing into the quiet vastness that waits beyond. It is not an end but a becoming, a step toward something that has no edges, no name, a dissolving that is also a return, a final letting go that feels like finding home in the absence of form.

Here is a nowhere, where personal hells meet

Here you will find my networked thought, where some may be fleeting and permanent. This is a record of my musings about various things from the mundane events of my own life up to the abstraction of thought itself. Somewhere in between those concepts lies everything that this mind is able to think of. This is a space for my unfinished thoughts and ideas linked together towards a (hopefully) coherent whole.

Origin: A Preface to the Apocrypha

A digital space for an evolving self-portrait

I want to craft an image of myself that depends on my thoughts. After experiencing
creative setbacks due to dishonest writing, I have begun to understand more of myself and my relationship with language and writing since then. This space will stand as an omnidirectional representation of my own self.

Points of Origin

As of this moment, I have five points of origin from where we can start. As the number of notes in this space grow, these will potentially expand, condense, or remain the same.

• _creative: prose, poetry, and other themes of writing
• _events: notes that often relate to describing larger events in my life
• _logs: daily notes focusing on small moments in a day or unstructured ideas that I'm thinking about recently
• _musings: notes that are usually longer that may have been triggered by life events as what was just mentioned above
• _thoughts: notes that could be short, often records of tiny bits of life events or musings that occur to me on a daily basis

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Navigating the labyrinth

This space contains a web of ideas where reading and writing is meant to be exploratory. There is no specific topic designed where each idea is labelled by an umbrella term, concept, or label. Every idea becomes relational, contextual, and hypertextual. There is no underlying structure to begin with. Since this is a perpetual work in progress, the structure will continuously adapt, based on every idea that has ever been published here. Each page is an idea that is often connected to other ideas that follows the Zettelkasten method of note-taking. Each idea is an atom of another idea or strings of ideas.

The web of ideas

On the upper-right (if you are viewing this on a desktop) or the bottom of the page (if you are viewing this on mobile), you will see how each note is connected to others. Depending on how each of them are related, be it in similarity, origin, or tangent of a thought, a line will always connect one note from another.

Each dot is a representation of a single note and depending on how many simultaneous connections it has with other notes, it grows in size. Hovering on a dot will tell you the title of a note, which may already tell you what it's about or maybe not.

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