Desire and the void
Reading paths / 6 stations / 1,105 words / 7 min contemplative traversal
- 01 III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillment
- 02 I. On the insatiability of desire
- 03 II. On the narcissistic quest of filling the void
- 04 The Infinities of Desire
- 05 The Creation of God
- 06 The Failure of Hedonistic Search for Happiness
- 01III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillment
- 02I. On the insatiability of desire
- 03II. On the narcissistic quest of filling the void
- 04The Infinities of Desire
- 05The Creation of God · The externalized Other and the gods within
- 06The Failure of Hedonistic Search for Happiness · Beyond default comfort and the avoidance of pain
Hop 01 III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillment
The Other is in the act of desiring. I want too much and this desire chases me like a full moon. "A little bit of everything all of the time." I want it all. Enable my greed for wanting but not for obtaining. I am afraid of not having to want anything. I want too much and I am tired. I want not to want anything. I want to seek the end of desire. I want to be satisfied, to be able to say, "Stop. No more." without…
Tangent this note links to A Return to Form, a station on Language and the unsayable.
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- Mar 21, 2025 Desire as an act of self-discovery
Hop 02 I. On the insatiability of desire
The Other is always the amorphous form of my desire. It takes the density of a solid sphere and the fragility of a bubble. It is my anchor that floats above me, eclipsing the grammar of my own thoughts and emotions. I am here, chained to that which I lack. A lack that is only created by my desire to desire. The more I desire, the more this otherness grows in size. It becomes the quantifiable element of my ambitions…
Tangent this note links to A Return to Form, a station on Language and the unsayable.
Tangent this note links to Liminal Spaces · A lunatic's guide to becoming a ghost, a station on Distance, faith, and loss.
Hop 03 II. On the narcissistic quest of filling the void
The Other is my own reflection that creates me. I hold this gaze to my othered self: Nietzsche's abyss and Narcissus' obsession. Any attempt to reach out to my reflection creates a gap, which is a distance measured by infinities. Direct contact with the Other is an act of suicide, so I rely on reflections. The mirror allows me to be in contact with my othered self in my own appearance. This familiarity keeps me…
Hop 04 The Infinities of Desire
A triptych of giving form to the formlessness of desire.
Hop 05 The Creation of God · The externalized Other and the gods within
Man's ceaseless search for a god ends up creating one. The externalized Other, whereas man can imagine a being bigger than himself while at the same time imagining himself in the process. This imagination of the self as a god in turn creates that distance dissociating himself from the being he is imagining: that gap due to man's inadequate belief of oneself springing from the necessity for a community because he…
Tangent this note links to Existential Anxiety around the Advancements in Large Language Models, a station on Technology, simulation, and the machine.
Hop 06 The Failure of Hedonistic Search for Happiness · Beyond default comfort and the avoidance of pain
Happiness as often misunderstood as the goal of life, when in fact it is merely a desire for a positive, comfortable status of one's self. This drive, in this definition makes man's often happiness-seeking self, becomes hedonistic. Pain must be avoided; pleasure, we must seek. In making happiness the ultimate goal of life subjects the self into a life of hedonistic pleasures.
Tangent this note links to The Human's Animal Impulse · Morality, ethics, and affirming the animal within, a station on Becoming a self.
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