One thought too manyGravity, grace, and the spreadsheet
“Whatever happened in me when I broke the plan happened next to a spreadsheet.”
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A Journey into the SelfEight principles of limitation and the Dantean descent
“With the right amount of god complex, the desire to become human must be present.”
III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillment
“I am afraid of not having to want anything.”
The World is as Hostile as the Morning
“I am hungry for interpretation because I haven't expressed anything in years.”
From elsewhere in the garden
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a small glossary about the weight of lossBetween problem and void
“Words do not answer a loss. They only move the weight of the absence somewhere I can carry it.”
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Against AgnosticismTheological skepticism as spiritual resignation
“We have blurred the existence of the heavens with the smoke and steam of progress.”
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Declarations_Of the body
“I check the mirrors: my reflection shifts between prisoner and guard.”
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the shape of what cannot be saidThe self around the unsayable
“The hand that reaches for a cup has never said the word ‘cup’.”
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The Cosmic Failure of a CreatorArtificial intelligence and the Promethean trap
“The type of failure I am feeling now is an empathy towards humanity as my own kind.”
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The World is as Hostile as the Morning
“I am hungry for interpretation because I haven't expressed anything in years.”
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Sacrifice, substitution, and the remainder of griefFolk horror from The Lottery to Midsommar and Pluribus
“Grief is bound to a single loss and cannot be lent.”
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To Speak, To ListenThe Ship of Theseus and bodily renewal
“I cannot always drag a corpse to my body for sentimentality and a sense of familiar comfort.”
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I. On the insatiability of desire
“I am here (and I am there), incomplete and complemented by this void that incompletes me.”
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we breathe critique and we're so bad at itMeta-criticism against algorithmic consensus
“Nowadays, everyone just assumes that everyone is expressing a point that should be taken seriously.”
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A Journey into the SelfEight principles of limitation and the Dantean descent
“With the right amount of god complex, the desire to become human must be present.”
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III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillment
“I am afraid of not having to want anything.”
Reading paths
- Becoming a self 12 notes
- Desire and the void 6 notes
- Distance, faith, and loss 12 notes
- Film as philosophy 7 notes
- Grief and substitution 7 notes
- Language and the unsayable 8 notes
- Technology, simulation, and the machine 8 notes
- Work, therapy, and recovery 12 notes
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- thoughts
- musings
- logs
- events
- creative
- perpetually inconsolable · Perpetual inconsolability and the phantom groove
- a small glossary about the weight of loss · Between problem and void
- the shape of what cannot be said · The self around the unsayable
- A Letter to Simone Weil, on distance · Grace without consolation
- Algorithmic realities · A question that assumes a world
- Technology and its Discontents
- 2026-11-01 · On consistency as principle
- 2026-10-27 · When obscurity turns into visibility
- 2026-10-26 · The calculus of politics and faith
- One thought too many · Gravity, grace, and the spreadsheet
- A month in the trenches · The knot of incompatible selves
- The breakdown
- Declarations_Of linguistic cartographies
- Declarations_Of the body
- Notes on Inhabiting
Recently published
- A month in the trenchesThe knot of incompatible selves
- Algorithmic realitiesA question that assumes a world
- on one's inner oracle
- how the world is continually desiring to deny its own humanitySelf-dehumanization without our consent
- on the compulsion to search for novel ideasDesire without an object in the algorithmic feed
- on passionate online reactionsRage-baiting, engagement traps, and the economy of noise
- on Companion (2025)
- Technology and its Discontents
- Seasons of the MindNesting ideas and thriving in mental abundance
- Existential Anxiety around the Advancements in Large Language Models
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Thoughts
One-takes. Unfiltered and unedited spur-of-the-moment writing.
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Musings
Things I have been wondering about.
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Logs
Daily logs of life events. Thoughts of a moment in a day.
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Events
Happenings in life and other aspects of my surroundings that have spurred a thought or an idea.
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Creative
Pieces more on the creative side, which will be in a form that I have no name for, or refused to name.