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- What I Learned in TherapyIt has been four years since I started and stopped going to therapy. With just a few sessions (due to financial limitations), I did not expect to learn a lot about myself and my…
- The breakdownI was working as a content writer for an English proficiency test company. I was doing pretty well at my job, still having that pride I know I am good at what I do while enjoying…
- Declarations_Of linguistic cartographiesThe body keeps its own history. Not in straight lines, but in fragments, in whispers, in the language between breaths.
- Declarations_Of the bodyThe body opens like a house with too many doors. Each morning I count the ways light enters—through eyelids, through pores, through the spaces between fingers when I hold my hand…
- Notes on InhabitingThe body refuses to be metaphor. Even as I write this, a tooth aches in protest, marking territory. Even as I try to make sense of living inside skin, my left knee catalogs its…
- To Speak, To ListenI am on this streak of reclaiming myself, if not my sense of self. I guess the latter carries more truth than the former because to reinvent my sensibilities is more important and…
- A Journey into the Self“Silent Peaks” (2023) by Pope Bacay, acrylic on canvas
- In Praise of Deliberate DecisionsThere are times when letting go is the key for a peaceful life. It lessens the friction inherent in social interactions, human relationships, and ultimately, life. Letting go…
- The only way to live is to dig deeperPhilosophy has been the home of my thoughts ever since I married myself to the idea of the mind over everything else. In my last year of high school, I had this intuition to…
- Consequences of BeliefI may have reached the point where it has become difficult to capture the feeling of experiencing things for the first time. At the age of 27, I am feeling a kind of unfamiliar…
- Before the World Caves InExegesis: then, we forgave God for creating the universe. It was “inevitability” in its purest form.
- Liminal Spacesfirst, measuring space in terms of width, with word-processing software: here, summon a block of text that will move one way or another. we often ask where is poetry but it is…
- I. On the insatiability of desireThe Other is always the amorphous form of my desire. It takes the density of a solid sphere and the fragility of a bubble. It is my anchor that floats above me, eclipsing the…
- II. On the narcissistic quest of filling the voidThe Other is my own reflection that creates me. I hold this gaze to my othered self: Nietzsche's abyss and Narcissus' obsession. Any attempt to reach out to my reflection creates…
- III. On the anxiety of desire’s fulfillmentThe Other is in the act of desiring. I want too much and this desire chases me like a full moon. "A little bit of everything all of the time." I want it all. Enable my greed for…
- A Return to FormIt is often an idea that spurs my desire to write. An idea so unprocessed, it linguistically dissolves upon writing a word about it. The moment I start to write is the moment…
- About the Inadequacy of Attempting to Communicate Grief through ArtOf course, I will always come back to you but only insofar as you wear the clothes of the transcendental signified. You are only you when you are stripped of everything that is…
- Hell is ourselvesI am confronted by the idea that the the eventual effects of artificial intelligence may result to the peak solipsism that humanity will ever experience. This solipsism feels like…
- Monsters and Overcoming Our SelvesIt is a difficult task to recognize the sleeping monster deep within us. It lies dormant that feeds on repressed memories, or trauma, guilt, and unprocessed experiences. The…
- Seeing MyselfI have been consuming a lot of media recently. From books to videos, games and music. I also just went through a 10-day quarantine after catching Covid. The details are completely…
- The Failure of Hedonistic Search for HappinessHappiness as often misunderstood as the goal of life, when in fact it is merely a desire for a positive, comfortable status of one's self. This drive, in this definition makes…
- To See the SelfIt is a terribly daunting task to see the self because on the onset, it already implies that you must remove yourself from it. To be an observer and change perspective at the…